Baahhh Humbug

Well it's supposed to be the season to be jolly, well it is I suppose because I'm jolly well pissed off. Due to my apendicitis it looks like I won't receive any money for that week. Well, that is the way things are I guess. I'm obviously pissed off, but not pissed off at anyone in particular. Well, wouldn't it be rather insane if I was happy about the whole situation? What I have now learned is that in order to get on in life you have to do what you want. That doesn't mean treat other people like shit obviously, but one really has to take responsibility for ones own destiny.

I had the opportunity a few months ago to work as a consultant for £25 per hour. I didn't take it because they wanted me to start work the very next day. I didn't start because I thought it best not to leave my employer without due notice. What a mistake I am thinking now. That employer also wouldn't allow me to work part time when I wanted to do an MA in Video production. Anyway, at least I treat people the way I expect to be treated myself. That is also a very interesting statement when one analyses it. If that was the case, if I acted like a complete bastard would I expect people to clamp down on me for my own good? It always works both ways. I tend not to kick up a fuss when people are not really ethical. Which is very bad really. I tend to bottle things up. I think thats one of the reasons I had an appendicitis, bottling things up inside and letting them fester. This is very irresponsible really, as it is a tacit consent. If you're not against it, you agree with it. This being said, there are things a few things I could say about individuals which could cause a lot of trouble. Some pretty dodgy stuff. But stirring is quite low. I hate to see injustice though.

Anyway, once again, onwards and upwards. Just riding out one of lifes vissisitudes. There is a mountain far far away that I'm heading towards. I'm just impatient and want to be there NOW!